It was frustrating. I have been at this job technically since late October, but have really only been doing the job for a few months. In all that time you'd think that someone would have told me all the do's ad don'ts of the job right? If not all the do's, at least all the don'ts should have been up front and lying on the table in plain sight, right? Well, I guess not.
I don't like getting in trouble. Yeah, I know sometimes it seems like I go looking for it. I may let my guard down and occasionally do stupid things, but I don't go looking for trouble. I don't go looking for someone to antagonize or a situation where I just do something to see if i can get away with or not. I'm too old for that.
When I suddenly find out that something I thought I have been doing right all along is really a no-no it bothers me. I can't help but have it bother me. Like most males, I like people to believe I'm thick-skinned and I can take anything. The thing is, when I get it chewed out (in so many words) it eats at me. I was sullen all day. I just had an overwhelming feeling like I just wanted to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head. Couldn't someone maybe have bothered to tell me?
I felt like I had been set up for a fall. It's like being blindfolded and told to walk a curvy road that's littered with traps and pitfalls. Maybe everyone isn't watching me, but at least the one that blindfolded me probably is, and he's just waiting for the inevitable fall.
Yeah, I know I'm just being paranoid, but I can't help but wonder what else I'm doing wrong without realizing it.
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So maybe you should go to your superior and ask him for any more do's and don'ts that you didn't get told in the beginning - be proactive and don't leave it to being reactive, as YOU say...
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